Wednesday, January 14, 2015

The end of maternity leave

I feel so so lucky to be able to have spent the last 11 weeks with Eden. It went by too quickly. I'm trying to move more slowly and really drink in and savor these last moments with out sweet girl. I love holding her little body, heavy with milk and sleep and I wish I could just pause life for a little while. 

I visited daycare yesterday to drop off Moses and get oriented with the infant room. It was peaceful and there were about 8 babies in there with 2 teachers. Lots of simple, matching cribs lined the walls, and each one had a baby's photo denoting who was to sleep where. A couple of babies were sleeping, but most of them were playing in the center of the room. No swaddles. No sleeping in car seats, swings, or toys. Not much crying either, honestly. 

I decided to try back off the swaddling right away when we got home, because I have a feeling this transition will be tough on everyone, and it'd be better not to go cold turkey on the swaddle with the start of daycare. I left her swaddle loose and one arm out. And you know what happened? Nothing. She napped just the same as usual. Babies change and grow so quickly. I'm sad I won't be able to watch every moment of Eden growing. But I have to trust, as I did with Moses, that because God's plan for me right now is to work, His plan for Eden is to be cared for by others. He is doing a work in of our lives, even now. But it's still hard on this momma's heart. I already miss her, even though I'm lying right next to her as she sweetly slumbers in her little bassinet. 

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